Bites the Big One!!

**Zombie_eater_69** · 05-01-2008, 08:15 PM

blahh.... what a shitty day. ya know those days that are just mind nimbingly shitty for no particular reason?...yeah, it's one of them!
i suppose it's the life style. A used to love the whole 'ultra cool' thing i had goin' on, but now everything is just pissing me off! ohh, by the way, this vent aint about anything in particular, i'm just gunna be goin' on about how much life bites the big one, so i suggest to stop reading this thread and start with something more interesting. anywho, man oh man! i just don't think anyone gets it. i don't think anyone really gets me! I mean, i'm very different from people in my small home town. I dress differetnly, i like different movies, different music, and i laugh at different jokes. Normally i'm cool with that, and i can still hold up a convo with a complete moron if i have to, but lately i can't seem to hold my own around any of these losers. God i wish i wasn't so pesemistic... haha nah i don't

A whole group of my friends graduated highschool last year, being in that group was the only time i really felt a part of anything. now that they're gone it's really lonely. just me and my main girl. And you have no idea the looks that we get. See, sometimes i miss the old crew and sometimes i think i'll survve without them. LAtely it all seems unbearable! I used to get through the days with the simple hope that i'd turn 18, get the hell out of here and up to California (or anywhere!) but now not even that seems to compfort me. To tell you the truth i'm kinda numb. All i really feel is this indiscribable feeling that is kind of like an angsty anger, but yet very mellow and relaxing. And tha alone pisses me off! what if i get to L.A and it's the same as here.. as in no one gets me and i can't find a decent fuck for the life of me!! ohh man, that would suck!! i don't even know what i'm so upset about, it's become kind of hazy. infact, my whole life does. theres no point to any of it. y'know that line from paranoid by the legendary black sabbath "people think i'm insane because i am drowning all the time..." well that's what i feel like, that and creep by radiohead. But hey, in the morning i'll have my coffee and cigerette, and probably forget all about this. Welcome to puberty...

**Bloppin** · 05-02-2008, 10:57 AM

I had similar feelings once (about wanting to get out of where I was at the time, anyway), so my advice to you is to take a chance and get up to California.
Check yourself into a youth hostel/backpackers, and you'll meet dozens of different people. Odds are you'll find some people who share the same interests as you. Then find a job, make some money and have some fun. Who knows what you'll do from there? Return home with a renewed lust for life? Keep traveling with some friends you make while you're there? You might even fall in love with the place and stay there for the rest of your life! All I know is that after I came home, all I wanted to do was travel again!
My point is, you'll never know if you don't try. What have you got to lose? A couple of dollars? You can always make more of them. It was a life changing experience for me when I packed up and went North to a tropical paridise to live and work for a few months, and I'll bet that you'd have a similar time...
Also, just 'cause you've finished High School doesn't mean you have to drop out of contact with your mates. I'm still close with a bunch of my school friends. As a matter of fact, a number of them regularly post in this forum!

By the way, the line from Paranioid is I am frowning all the time, but I think it makes more sense for your situation anyway...

**slim** · 05-02-2008, 11:19 AM

Man, Tom should really have his own advice column...

PS. California is a pretty awesome place.

**Zombie_eater_69** · 05-03-2008, 08:13 PM

na'w, thanks for the advice guys. by the way, i'm still in highschool and have 1 1/2 more years till i get out, my friends were all 2 years older than me, bummer i know.
anyhow, thanks heaps, i will deffinatly do as you say and make sure i get the hell outa here! until then, aloha cats

**Strife** · 05-04-2008, 11:54 PM

Wow, I've listen to that song like a million times and I always thought it was drowning. I looked up the lyrics just to confirm what you were saying and the first site that popped up on google (lyricsfreak.com) had it as "People think Im insane because I am browning all the time".

**wally funk** · 05-05-2008, 12:16 AM

what the fuck is browning? giving someone a browneye?

**slim** · 05-05-2008, 05:14 AM

I always thought it was frowning. Drowning doesn't make sense and browning isn't a word. Unless you're talking about that Emily Browning chick, but she's a skank.