Mates for life? yeah right.

[Rage]

A few months ago, my best mate starts dating this girl, and at first she seemed all nice and cool

WRONG. After a week the chick decides she's going to start ripping into me, trying to get a hit on my insecurities, stirring shit up about this girl who is like a sister to me, claiming she will stomp her face and and etc just so she can get a reaction from me.

and thats when everything starts to fall apart.
see my best mate isnt very bright. he will ally himself to whoever he can please the most so he can fill the gap of insecurity that was formed by his older half brother who would always undermine his confidence when he was a kid.

he used to be quite a chubby kid when he was around ten, so from all of that, his insecurities developed and he started trying to please everyone and have everyone like him, no matter what the cost. like i said he's not very bright.

moving on, as we grew up, so did his need to please everyone, at 13 he got himself into binge drinking, smoking and marijuana, which unfortunately, all three i got wrapped up in for a small while (though im still a casual drinker).

when his parents split up, he became a derro (which is the australian equivalent of a thug, i believe), so he started vandalism, he started getting into fights, acting like he was all tough and so on, he always said it was because he was going through a tough time, which might have been reasonable, but he isnt the type to hold onto emotions like that, he has too many people to try to impress.

and all this time, i was one of those pathetic kids with not many friends and not alot of self respect. i was also a bit of a spazz (psycho), i would lash out alot and throw massive rage outs (which stopped at around 14).

he got himself into all of that from around 12-14 (he has a late birthday).
anywho, after a few years of heavy smoking, lots of binge drinking of goon (cheap wine from the boxes, euugh), and marijuana, he finally got out of it, which was mostly because his previously mentioned half brother, who was a terrible influence on him, got kicked out due to his unrestrained anger in this one event, where we went insanely spastic.

so when his half brother got kicked out, he stopped buying weed and cigarrettes and all he did was drink, which was great. but then something happened, yes thats right, his girlfriend.

this stupid whore comes along and ruins everything.
he's always been really defensive about his girlfriends, and especially defensive when they are in the wrong.
this bitch starts trying to play on my insecurities, starts trying to impose herself on his life and it all starts working, she hits a note, which is the girl my best mate used to date who is like a sister to me, and she keeps at it,

i keep telling her to stop all of this because i dont want to have a go at my best mates girlfriend, but she just persists on shit stirring, and doesnt stop.

and THEN,

oh you wont believe this, this is the gold, the ace of spades.

SHE makes up some STUPID BULLSHIT about ME telling someone that, get this, she doesnt like him anymore
WHICH IS SO FUCKING STUPID THAT THERE ARENT ENOUGH ADJECTIVES IN THIS LANGUAGE TO DESCRIBE IT
WHAT A FUCKING BITCH, THE FUCKING NERVE OF IT ALL, MY BEST MATE, FOR FIVE AND A HALF FUCKING YEARS ACCUSES ME OF TALKING ABOUT ALL OF THIS CRAP BEHIND HIS BACK

and yes, i've been complaining about his behaviour, which has been extremely similar over the last few weeks. he goes out of his way, to comment on my social networking photo's about how much better than me he is, about how he has had two girlfriends since he started high school, one of which i was deeply in love with for over a year, until i started seeing her as a sister, and how i havent had any since my first year in highschool.

now that struck a chord.
so i told him to back off.

and i think thats what inspired all of this.
he doesnt have the guts to say anything to my face when its just us two.
because he has the courage of a rat, but over the internet he's some tough guy who's gonna get one of his big friends 'after me'.

i told him to piss off or i'd go to the cops if he made any threats.

well obviously he's not my best mate anymore and even though i know after a few months, he and his girlfriend will break up, and he'll try to apologise for it. im not going to take it.

im not going to deal with his shit ever again.
if it were up to me, i would beat the living fuck out of him the next time i saw him. but i know better than that.

even though though we're around the same build, he might be bigger, i can still beat him to the ground, he has some sort of idea that he can take me, i did muay thai for quite a while, and all he's ever gotten is a few tips on wrestling and watching UFC fights. i'm also faster, have better reactions, and i dont underestimate my opponents. or overestimate myself.

the point of this is, me venting my rage. i have had a lot of emotional issues throughout my life, which are fairly common but still impacting, including the anger management issues, depression, lack of social life for a while, lacking of relationship building skill, etc.

and the best way for me to vent it, is to tell someone or to beat the living shit out of my punching bag, i've done the latter, so here is the former.

thanks for taking the time to read this.
(p.s. he just told me to back off his girlfriend. when i said goodbye i meant it, not "hey, reply to this trying to act tough and try to be intimidating too" these next few weeks are going to be fun.)

[Lucy]

hey. from one Aussie to another (i'm guessing...?). i'm really sorry. i'm getting annoyed at your friend just by reading this. I cant imagine how you're feeling. but hey. We're all here for you.
I do hope you feel better having said how you feel, and knowing that people have read it.
hope it all goes ok for you.

oh, and seriously, that girl sounds like a BITCH!! gah! i HATE girls like that!! :/

[slim]

We seem to have an inordinate number of Australians on this site (not that I'm complaining, it's awesome) - welcome Lucy.